you tried so hard tonight to not call
to not fall
into that trap
of wondering where I was at
who I was with
and the fun I was having
turned off the device that connects us to on another
strange noises outside my window make me think it’s you
sleep my head
and I sleep without you
first time in months
you do not occupy my bed
though you and I both know
what’s turning in my head
and farther away I push you still
grasping to straws
capturing your will
ignoring your flaws
no feeling of freedom is what you are seeking
answer to my questions
in the cheat sheets I am peaking
thinking
that you are in the arms of another
or trying to prove to your self that I am no other
then the rest of the women you keep in your site
no expectations
no worry
no love
no fright
though I
sweet love
one still hold to this day
so soon you ask me
you ask me to stray
so far from your love that I do not see clearly
the love we once shared
that both held us dearly
so close to the hearts that we call our own
tonight
sleepy
I miss you
inside this great home
that became a palace with King by my side
and by and by
I am beginning to rely
that your return not eminent when feelings so low
no communication
no words of you that show
on the medium of electric that we speak so free,
it will be twenty-four hours since that has been
twenty four hours in the last six months
where you did not hear
the voice you love so much
the one that made you speak up to god
and tell him your love would not be a facade
that your would trust and love someone like me
a lie
a try
what is it to be
no crystal ball we recite everyday
and I again I retort
let come what may
sleepy I say
and again I want to lay
head on the cloud that we called out loud
the place where our hearts turned the word for love
I love you this way
and for this I am proud
to hold you in a respect and not falter
not push on and dream that one day you will barter
with feelings that you can love me like me
and see
what it is that I see
and love me for the reasons
the reasons that be
the tie to what hold us together
for better or worse
or never better
*shrug*
I say
come what may
sleep dear child
sleep.
